My injury.
When I told myself that it could be ...
To be into this is an opportunity that won't come back, probably
I Started hours of crying myself to know, and that's what made me who I am today.
I feel a lot better nowadays and much more prepared compared to the opportunity I had before.
So basically what just happened is some kind of moral excellence...
The development of virtue has a historical association as an alchemical process, wherein the internal virtues that we associate with the mind are interactively understood also the healthy biological structure of our bodies and externally the planet as a whole
I said to myself, I've already been on the leave side, it's stayed in me to this day,
I'm not repeating the same mistake
There's sediment left for that decision
It's not just this, it's also my injury, as a young boy before I reached age of 26, that created a terrible blooper feeling.
And I'm not talking to you about a blooper of money or degrees,
I'm talking about body and soul, about what could have come out of me.
Before I was 26, I was lite in terms of physical development of the body,
I had no doubt that at the age of 30 something else would have come out.
Living all these years with this blooper feeling , it's Probably sat there.
And there was a moment that even though everyone who were around me said I had to go for it
I decided I was staying, that I couldn't leave.
At year 2014 I said to myself, "Just be your self, and you'll know that an opportunity like this might not come back."
And as soon as I said that to myself, I must have touched myself with deep understandings, it took years-deep wound, & then started 24 hours that I just cried myself helpless.
Probably regardless of the situation, I cried about everything.
I've even cried about other things, & that's what made me the person that I am Now.
Yes. I haven't agreed for years to cry about this thing.
Obviously, I'd rather have taken things differently.
And then everything was different.
You have to understand, it's hard to break into your own mind.
What happened is an extreme situation & if I had given up it might not have come back.
year 2016 Came a huge Change in my life I also know I might go into a dangerous situation,
& it's clear to me that this could have been an extreme point.
I'm not banking on my connection to studies & Love life
The people who run with their life rather much more than post graduate studies about my personal abilities.
Today I feel much more prepared compared to the opportunity I had.
The emotional roller coaster, it feels like every time you get into this tortured situation,
from gaining international recognition, & that it may end the exact opposite of what was had in mind.
I was just talking to my dad about it, he knows how to simplify things, & he said to me "you can't pick the roll in movies you go into."
In a lot of points things really happen to me in extreme situations
You can look at it with a little with a smile.
We always been asked the clichés, like what are your dreams , or where do you see yourself after years to pass through.
There were difficulties and fights and even if that was everything for me , but in the end it's the big family that hugged me
You know people, have life experiences, disappointmentsetc.
I just lived the dream.
That's why my first instinct was to get the waiver.
Because before they offer everything to you if it was good, I was happy, very happy.
It's not a natural thing to leave a place that's so good to you.
Never the less at the end of what happened was when it wasn't until I really released those dreams -it suddenly happened.
When an opportunity like this comes along, it's hard to leave people in a situation like this,
There's self-respect here, they didn't push for it and I didn't agree to it, but in the end,
with my personal experience that's very emotional & extremely difficult,
In order to to get that kind of hug from your family - it's an honor for status.
You're talking about if there's wasn't Corona... CO-VID 19
If there is no Corona, The last year 2020 is an historical year.
If there weren't Corona, remind you where we've been?
This, too, joins my cases of the outside world. All over the world !
We were in some crazy pick and everything's been messed up ever since.
We still haven't recovered from the Corona until today.
And despite all the difficulties, we managed to keep our heads above water.
There's a beating heart, he feels & we know what I built this by my own
I wish the situation was different, and it really doesn't make sense to leave a place like this.
I don't really feel like Citrus Medica Fruit.
It's sometimes your detriment, too, I didn't feel watched over & I try not to get involved with other people problems.
The only thing that gets in the way is if the criticism is none of my business.
I go to a place where I've had good experiences & love , yet I'm ain't counting on it much. Since I know how this weave can turn on you, too.
I Just ask for one thing:
That in 10 years I will be in a place where they will hug me and love me as much as you have loved me until now.