Just like a movie
“I want you in my heaven that is to say ~ any country
where people live happy
even without permission.”
Mario Benedetti
Going to the Netherlands to do a language course.
It was right before the virus of mad cow broke ,
Right before my flight, I started to worry a bit, so I called the school of film and television 📺
They assured me that everything was safe and I could come.
When I arrived in winter 1999,as a small City boy, I couldn't believe what I saw.
Amsterdam is a city with over two million inhabitants, but the streets were completely fun, the people were joyful and the winter was a bit harsh on me.
That time the city had me going out ,spend time in language school and looking for a place to stay
I went straight to my apartment search and I rented a room in a house for a stay.
I didn't have enough money to pay anymore and going out steady was bit more than I could afford
As a house hold, Elizabeth was a kind woman ,and she quickly found me a job as a bartender.
I went to all my classes in photography course, dark room etc.
I decided everything I do ,I do to have fun work hard and study good
Living in a big city was for me at young age quite different and felt lonely.
After a month, the city seams to me a bit too much open liberal and when spring season came it was better.
To get to know people, I was dining out dance in clubs and reading books at the local biblioteque
There were a hundreds of people on the streets rushing around and that's how I got to know my first prime love.
After a few days my camera and cell phone got stolen, and people I knew couldn’t find me .
When we met on the dance floor in paradiso club one night
We clicked from the beginning, but we both didn't believe in long-distance relationships, so we agreed that it would be like the movie: Before sunrise.
Have you seen it?
It's about a guy from New York and a girl from Paris who meet on the train from Budapest to Vienna.
They decide to spend one magical night together in Vienna and move on the next day without exchanging contact information.
It was even much more than a movie it self it was life reality
We just wanted to enjoy our time together for as long as it would last.
However, a few weeks later, i had a break down and had to be hospitalised in a shock post trauma
My life was on the edge, my head was in a state of shock
my feelings were much deeper about life in The Netherlands
after finding love and going out I had a ticket back to TelAviv.
In Israel my parents family and friends were worried.
When I returned to Amsterdam after many years I flew First at 2003 with my Dutch mother it was to pack my things,& felt like leaving behind my teenage summer love, that I had no contact with, this was the more serious version.
As We returned back to my home town
I cried so hard that I got a severe throat infection.
We met again by chance 16 years afterwards
that time it held in Israel 🇮🇱
situation was that life brought me to say in front class in studies at the Design Academy I always said: I'm not going to be that dipshit who has a long-distance relationship, well guess what was wrong saying...
I realized that you do anything for love.
Yet it wasn’t true at all, there wasn’t time or enough money to build a future
It's surprising that years afterwards I would find the people that were there in Amsterdam, they all told me that if I would have stayed longer my life was on threat they still remember me ,and we exchanged friendship via social media
I flew once again in year 2016 to south part of The Netherlands
now that wasn’t predictable but somehow i found my prime love and we spent several weeks in heaven.
I felt proud again, happy to find the Netherlands in great time spending
I even bought a flag of the Netherlands 🇳🇱
Quick memory the European Eurovision song competition was held in Tel Aviv Israel 🇮🇱
On 2018 we dedicated a family gathering in The Netherlands.
It was for our pa who had his 80’s birthday, since he was a student in The Netherlands 🇳🇱 many years ago he went to say goodbye 👋
after I found that the love story between us wasn’t working & all of a sudden I felt pain, that was when a nice Dutch singer 🎶 Dunken Laurence sang
“Loving you is a loosing game”
My heart was heavy !
In that time my life gave me opportunities
To go on flights, you may not know that but the power of that particular thing gave me inspiration to build a website dedicated to the Wagener sisters r.i.p.
My mom Tineke & auntie Lott left us after completing life cycle of raising a family with a lot of success.
Nowadays during the COVID-19 pandemic I had good luck to be at my city living a
TLVivian life
One thing I am sure that my second book is going to be memories about that long years stay :TLVivian life-short stories
I experience the powerful medium of photography and tool of writing .
I have turned the house into a visual studio.
My life is in good health
Cooking cycling maintenance the shape of individual lifestyle.
At my house I have a large Art collection & beautiful artifacts I place in my studio .
Several cameras 📷 computers and sound systems
The house was the perfect shelter in this year 2020, my enthusiasm to create collect & write down intuitive thoughts , my vision in photography and work on my project.
It is clear that it sure was tough , productive year in my life !
I manage to built a name alongside my individual artistic personal expression.
Deep inside of me am I longing for the Spring of emotions that we experienced ?
That I cannot tell..!
My memories are clear, my health is clean I loved the experience & feeling grateful for those moments.
It sure was long time spending in the house -time spending into nature around the block , living in Tel Aviv made me better understand my goodness of life style
The Int affair (Gesina) has gone when she told me that her heart belongs to someone else
I felt like earth gravity & cold breeze in my face. It was hard on me ,same times I continue to get attention from the social media airbnb city life vacations and freedom
she had this told me &my vision was right ,honesty, beauty & tough decision making ,no togetherness no more
We cannot be together...!!!
Desert experience...!!!
Just like the movie 🎞
Before Sunrise 🌅
My hair now has a new kind of salty ocean mist 🌊& 🌞