I had everything
a beautiful childhood, bright mother, stone house, beautiful life as a single handsome young man.
After years of studying hard I have received my diplomas, 2 of them acctually
I made a decision it was time to take a break and travel a bit.
I saved up some money and began to have flights to beautiful places.
Those destinations of traveling were terrific.
It felt good to be together with family and friends abroad.
During my vacations , I was fully living in the moment.
I wasn't following the news, so I had no idea what was going on the TV and press
I Just wanted to be presence & capture beautiful memories & images.
When I got back to Tel Aviv a few months later, I started looking for a new job.
I haven't worked for many years, but I had many skills to bring with me.
At the job sector, where the jobs were there for the taking I replied forms and C.V.
I sent out dozens of job applications, but I kept getting rejected.
My privacy is taken by hypocrites that consume for their own self's esteem and never seems to really understand
*Grid is their Lust for control & power
The outcome of the financial crises had become visible, and all of a sudden, it seemed impossible to find a job.
The jobs I have found before were at a nightclubs & I even worked there as a bartender
* as a professional photographer, until now never been paid for. NON.
While putting the guest room for sublet by Airbnb, every once in a while had a booking,
with great success and even got the Super Host title.
I kept on Maintaining the visual sites social media and purchasing new equipment for my project.
Still, the bills kept coming in.
People around me were constantly intervein in my private life and my decision making.
Eventually, I couldn't keep up with them, as a citizen & many years in the big cold expensive city, Tel Aviv Central.
After More than a decade as TLVivian I miss my biological mother so much, No hope No Glory !!
This catastrophic year 2020 while quarantined I have lost all contacts I had with old friends and even family.
My Love life got shattered, my heart broken.
I have spent lonesome days and nights alone,
for very long time, with no physicals contact, no TV no news papers nor books to fill my time.
my bright physicals shape got damaged
it led to loosing all my creativity skills,
I even got creativity block before but hey-how much could it take to be infront..
It feels like all my powers dropped to low level
I couldn't afford to buy healthy food or relocate to other destinations
Just lost the desire to be in a place where I feel so empty.
That's when I fell into a deep depression...
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Tel Aviv
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